Like every other mom with a child in the Navy, I had to catch my breath when the Syrian air strikes were announced last night.
Oh, who am I kidding? I bawled my eyes out for 10 minutes.
When Aaron first enlisted, I got around my fear of him facing combat by telling myself not to borrow trouble. I can’t predict the future so there’s no sense in worrying about things that haven’t happened yet – especially things that are out of my control.
That approach has served me well so far, but it fizzled last night as worry came crashing down around me.
Two things helped me get through it.
First, I reminded myself that our Sailors and Marines are highly skilled professionals who are well prepared physically and mentally for these scenarios. This is what they are trained to do. We must trust them and let them work.
Second, I spent a little time last night chatting online with other Navy moms, some with service members in the same unit as Aaron. It felt good to know I wasn’t alone in my fear and that I wasn’t overreacting.
The strikes were probably over by the time the news hit the U.S. airwaves, but my anxiety lasted far longer. I had a lot of trouble sleeping and nightmares when I did nod off.
I’m tired today but relieved that the situation seems to be stable at the moment.
This was the first time I’ve had to deal with military action since Aaron enlisted, but I suspect it won’t be the last. I just have to remind myself that this is his job and he takes it very, very seriously.
It’s my job to support Aaron, something I take very, very seriously. But, geez, being a Navy mom is really hard sometimes.
If you’re a seasoned Navy mom, you know this torrent of feelings well.
If you’re new at all this, remember you are not alone. Other Navy moms are your sisters-in-arms. Lean on each other and we’ll get through it together.